Jan 2019
This officially has been the longest and the shortest month ever. I really don't know what happened to year 2018 or for the matter the 2 years before it. Everything seems dazy and as if it never existed. My entire life seems to be at the cross roads every damn minute. For a moment I am thinking I exactly know what I want to do and how I plan to do and the very next moment everything changes. Last 2 months I literally had my life being ruled by someone else , the decisions being made by someone else. It is entirely traumatic to be at the begging end. It is entirely torturous to keep changing the plans. I am tired and sick of handling all sorts of people. It is not an easy thing to do. I never for once wanted to go out of the country but at this moment that seems to be the best thing to do. I really want to get out think and understand what needs to be done and how do I want to do it. Its nightmarish already not having a clue of what you want to do and you are so close to 35. I ...